::The State of Numb::

Some people firmly believed that it is plain dangerous to speak your mind when you're caught in an unstable condition because the articulations could kill.

But to my belief, words could turn sour feelings the other way round and thus, pacified the within almost instantly. I am clamouring for that pacifier effect. So that I can sleep tightly tonight. If this uneasiness remains in me, I'll be writing freaking crap entries till dawn.

At times, I realized that I got all reason in this world to live happily with my loved ones. But amidst those good things, the influence of defeatism beats my guts and simply took over my happiness. Life's fragile, isn't it? But the fact is, love life could cost everyone more than just that. When that undesirable time came to us, we then have the reason to live miserable.

That's mainly why I call the love as bittersweet. Learn to take the bitterness and adapt with the pains before we can finally relished the eternal sweetness. And in the course of learning this, some might lose grip and tend to rest the case.

But, I always remind myself and advice others not to simply jump on such a decision. But somehow, being humans,we aren't the clairvoyants. Only Allah SWT has that ultimate power. Therefore, we must learn to accept whatever that have been fated for us. Qada' & Qadar has always reminds us that the Almighty knows what are the best things for His servants.

All grown ups must have their very own plan(s) for their very own future. Regardless how successful the person has been or how sucks the life used to be previously, everyone needs a clearcut plan to skecth for a better life ahead. Life isn't a fairy-tale with all unexpected happiness to come into our ways with one prince charming holding yourhand in clasp.

That's why we need to anticipate in 'designing' our desired future and hopefully things will be just right in place for all of us. Let us do the sketchings and designings but never forget to tawakkal.

So, I am wishing myself all the best in my future endeavor. May Allah SWT bless me constantly and I really need lots of His blessings to make this life flow smoothly with less pain in the heart and torture to the mind.

Not to forget, I am wishing all readers all the best in your version of endeavors as well!

I guess I can sleep now.

;)

And I need to wake up early in the morning tomorrow. I'll be hunting for nasi lemak for my breakfast!

Wee--hoo..!~